Mi Familia

All I have to say...is that I have the freakin' best family this side of the Mississippi. My dad, well, he's pretty much my hero and knows alot about life and ...well, windows. He's just really the best. Mom, all that is kind, loving and tender. She really is the essence of complete opposite narcissism. Actually, read three blogs down, about the song entitled "Tough"...that be my Mama. My sis, she is just way supah-fly. She loves to have a good time, and is really concerned about people. She is AMAZING! And my best friend forevah. Little bro, well he is just fun. We like to go and explore, pick berries, and play GIJoe. So way cool....

And, yeah, I guess they are on my mind. Because all the other things on my mind lately...are not exacly as fun. 1. Host Mom deciding that I am not the best person to have stay...to put it midly. 2. decisions decisions. 3. Friends talking about friends...playing middle man. Arg. Oh, well. GLORY to JESUS!

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Ok, do you even realize that I am not even themed in one deal. Man, I need to befriend my board right...surf that is. I'm such a dork, but girl, you be liking it eh? Ok, so I'll continue...um, wait where was I? Do you realize that I bought Shane a bar of 100% cacao. And um... I really need to pay more attention in science...I just wrote a whole deal about materialism. Gheez... pink pong ball thought process. That'd be me in a shellnut, oh wait, I think it's a nutshell. You know, I really think that if the devil were to look like anyone...it be kind of like Michael Bolten. Considering, that Carl says that he may not look much different than that of his old, Lucifer. Oh wow...

Decisions

So...ever had to make wayyy too many huge decisions all within a short matter of time? Crazy eh? And some you don't feel like you'll ever know the answer til until it's too late. Arg. I don't want to miss any opportunities, but I don't want to rashly dive into something...Hummm...Think...God...help... Give me a sign....hummm...Ha. Yeah that be a sign of a really confused soul. Ha. At least there's now question about whether my name is written in the Lamb's Book of Life.

My Mama in a Nutshell

She’s in the kitchen at the crack of dawn

Bacon’s on, coffee’s strong

Kids running wild, taking off their clothes

If she’s a nervous wreck, well it never shows

Takes one to football and one to dance

Hits the Y for aerobics class

Drops by the bank, stops at the store

Has on a smile when I walk through the door

The last to go to bed, she’ll be the first one up

And I thought I was tough

TO WRITE LOVE ON HER ARMS

SHE HAS KNOW SUCH GREAT PAIN; HAUNTED DREAMS AS A CHILD, THE NEAR-CONSTANT PRESENCE OF EVIL EVER SINCE. SHE HAS FELT THE TOUCH OF AWEFUL NAKED MEN, BATTLED DEPRESSION AND ADDICTION, AND ATTEMPTED SUICIDE. HER ARMS REMEMBER RAZOR BLADES, FIFTY SCARS THAT SPEAK OF SELF-INFLICTED WOUNDS. SIX HOURS AFTER I MEET HER, SHE IS FEELING TRAPPED, TWO GROUPS OF “FRIENDS” OFFERING OPPOSITE IDEAS. EVERYONE IS ASLEEP. THE SUN IS RISING. SHE DRINKS LONG FROM A BOTTLE OF LIQUOR, TAKES A RAZOR BLADE FROM THE TABLE AND LOCKS HERSELF IN THE BATHROOM. SHE CUTS HERSELF, USING THE BLADE TO WRITE “FUCK UP” LARGE ACROSS HER LEFT FOREARM.

STOP THE BLEEDING.
RESCUE IS POSSIBLE.
LOVE IS THE MOVEMENT.

*TO WRITE LOVE ON HER ARMS*

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One Hundred Achievemtnes for My Life

Listed at Random
04.11.99

ones done:listed in John Deere Yellow, ones yet to do: listed in John Deere Green

adopt and/or have a sponsored child
befriend an enemy
be in two places at once
bring gifts to an orphanage in a 3rd world country
debate a pro-choicer
do a 360 on a kneeboard
don’t have a TV ‘til kids are older
don’t get fat
don’t name kids common names
eat healthy
help a homeless person
get an ol’ car for my 1st one
get a period style dress
get married outside
be on jeopardy
own spurs and chaps
paraglide
go on a Caribbean cruise
go on a mission trip
skydive
rock climb
surf
learn Dutch
learn Spanish
learn French
learn sigh
learn German
learn to tap-dance
learn to line dance
learn to ballroom dance
learn to sing opera
mr. Right must be approved by God and Dad
learn to snow ski
learn to water ski
own or lease a horse
ride horse on beach
see Oklahoma play
see west side story
see Annie
see fiddler on roof
see phantom
see swan lake
see Shakespeare’s best…in Ashland
star in Broadway
star in Shakespeare
visit Australia
visit Austria
visit Victoria Canada
visit Nova Scotia and PEI Canada
visit Banff Canada
visit Paris
visit Frankfurt
visit Great Pyramids
visit Israel
visit Dublin
visit Florence
visit Pisa
visit Rome
visit NZ
visit 7 wonders of ancient world
visit bora bora
visit Tahiti
visit Barcelona
visit Kazakhstan
visit Bancock
visit Yellowstone
visit Crater lake
visit statue of liberty
visit mt Rushmore
visit golden gate bridge
visit Alcatraz
write and publish book
jump from bridge
go-kart…for real
be 1st on swim team
go to favourite state
learn how to tune up car
learn basic survival techniques
live, love, thrive…
bake Christmas cookies for neighbors
climb a silo
drive the deere
write and publish poem
learn to play an instrument
ride in FRONT SEAT of cap car
learn basics of bartending
go to culinary school
go to theatre school
go to Bible school